The strain

Everything for this YWAM adventure is falling together perfectly. Tomorrow I will be sending out the letters to everyone telling them what I am going to be doing and a list of prayer needs. Getting things like that done is a huge relief. Now that I have deodorant and sani-hands I feel like I am really ready for this adventure.

My parents have been the BIGGEST blessing in all of this. They have fronted me so much money and have done more for me than they should. They have done more than they should and I thank them so much for that. It means the world.

Having the moral support from my family hand friends is my other huge blessing. Knowing that I am going to have all the people here praying for me before I depart, and while I am there really gives me so much comfort.

I think that in the next week, I am going to do 100% of my laundry and figure out what cloths I am going to take. That way I can have most of my things ready and almost packed, that way I don't have so much to worry about when the time to leave rushes to greet me. Time is going by way faster than I thought it would. Kinda scaring me here. I really do wish that it would go a little slower so that I can take everything in.

I know that what I am going to be doing is a part of God's calling for me. But at the same time, a lot in my life is changing right now. As much as I want to go to Africa, I want to stay. Of course I am still going. But I am ready to have it over with and continue my life. But when I say that, I realize how selfish I am. When I have that realization, I get my head screwed back on the RIGHT way, and realize how big this is. I'm going to Africa. I am going to be with children with AIDS. I am going to love on those children. I am going to help as much as I can. I am going to do God's will and not my own.